I used to wonder in my 20s and 30s when I would finally get to the day when I would say I had arrived at happy or as I now see it what I was looking for was contentment. Like one day it is just going to change and the angels would sing. I am not sure what I was expecting to happen to bring me to this place. As I have gotten older into my 40s, something happened that changed how I look at things.
I stopped looking outward and starting looking inward. I had to determine my own happiness. It wasn't going to arrive like a package and it certainly couldn't be bought. I had to "grow where I was planted" and decide to be happy". I always enjoyed life but I would let the daily struggles get me down instead of looking at them as the blessings they are. I still tell remind myself and the kids that thankfulness makes even the worst tasks easier. (Except picking up dog poop). I still mumble things under my breath when I have to do that chore.
I really just focused inside our home and on the family.
No comparing to others, wishing my car was newer. Just down to basics. Make good meals for the family, take care of my home and what I already have, make memories with the kids. My mom was always so satisfied with her simple life. Never wanted more than she had. I feel I am finally at that place. Maybe it comes with age. That is a blessing about getting a little older. You know what counts. Today it has been hot, so I stayed inside and spruced up my kitchen until it sparkled. That feeling, to me anyway, is worth more than any new thing I could buy or place I could run off to. I am happy here with what I have.
I put in my profile for this blog that I was striving for contentment in the simple things. Blogging has helped me to be so thankful for what I do have and not what I don't. Others may wish they were this or that, but other than sewing envy I have of some of my favorite bloggers or artistic talents I know I will never achieve (you know who you are), I just appreciate what you all share with me everyday and the friendly comments I so look forward to. With a thankful heart...